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20 February 2003 @ 01:56 pm
*swallows nausea* Ugh...  
Why can't I just puke and get it over with? *cries*

And why is everybody's choice adjective for me, and for everything I do, 'creepy'? What's so fucking creepy about me? I'm not goddamned Stephen King; I left most of my supernatural roots behind in the seventh grade. Am I so jaded that that I could write about or draw or think about damn near anything and not be disgusted or frightened? I don't even know why this is pissing me off suddenly, since I seem to work so hard at getting and maintaining this image. And I'm damn good at it, I suppose, to judge by other people's reactions.

Maybe I'm just tired of being told, "It's good... but a little dark." You know? I'm really sick of it. I know it's fucking dark; that's how I do things. Even the fluff I write is dark.

Maybe I'm just tired of skinny little teenaged girls in tight pink t-shirts who don't want to understand anything that falls outside their comfort zone. Whereas I feel like... I don't know... I want to understand everything, I want a consciousness large enough to absorb all the knowledge in the world. But I don't have it. I dunno. And then I feel a hypocrite because obviously I'm not taking the time to understand these fluff girls. But should I?

Maybe I'm just sick. And tired of everything. I don't know.
 
 
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Classy kinda sassy: chibisimmysim on February 20th, 2003 02:24 pm (UTC)
you're not creepy, other people are stupid.
your writing is deliciously dark, and should stay so, because no one writes it as well as you can.
and everyone's tired of those stupid skinny teenage girls. even the stupid teenage girls.
which is why they're so mean to each other.
DrWorm: brightdrworm on February 21st, 2003 07:27 am (UTC)
which is why they're so mean to each other.

That would explain a lot, wouldn't it? They'll branch out eventually and become more interesting. :D In five years, watch 'em come crawling to us for jobs. *bwahahahaha*

Or... maybe they'll become society wives and never change.
Sycoraxsycoraxthewitch on February 20th, 2003 05:20 pm (UTC)
I loooove your art and writing just the way it is.

If it's any comfort I/my art get called creepy too. ...and freaky ...and sick ...and strange.
I once drew a vampire (It was just a dracula type vampire and not much blood at all) that upset a girl in my class so bad that she couldn't sleep.
DrWorm: sighdrworm on February 21st, 2003 07:23 am (UTC)
I once drew a vampire that upset a girl in my class so bad that she couldn't sleep.

Okaaaaay. She just sounds like she needed a serious reality-check. Or something. Hypersensitive twits. I bet it was an awesome drawing.

But yeah. Sick, strange, "Pretty good, except for all the people bleeding". Sigh. I mean, I'm not even that scary looking in real life, I think. I'm just mousey and dorky looking. But no... still called 'creepy'. I just don't understand it. Not that I'll change or anything. I just don't understand.
Psychodelic Barfly: Draco -- TEApsychobarfly on February 20th, 2003 08:49 pm (UTC)
*hugs* lala is just the way we like her, and everyone else can go fuck themselves with a thorny branch. <-- that'd hurt. :D
DrWorm: huzzah!drworm on February 21st, 2003 07:24 am (UTC)
That would indeed hurt, but I wouldn't be particularly sorry. :D

TEA!
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DrWorm: brightdrworm on February 21st, 2003 07:29 am (UTC)
Yes. That would solve the problem. Or alienate all the friends I do have. I'm not sure which.

I suppose it just depends upon your perception of 'dark'. I don't feel dark to me. So I'll continue to be undark and they can continue to think of me as dark and I'll slowly blend into a nice grey color. It'll be smashing.