July 11th, 2002

fuck you

Flames...

I got two (from the same person). One for a Harry/Draco pic and the other for a Remus/Sirius (she's not flaming all of my Remus/Harry pics though... huh...). Anyway, here they be:

"you say people enjoy it........well i dont!thats disgusting there 14 years old do u hav no decentcy at all you sick pervert"

"do u actually hav a fetish sor guys cuddling or sumthin thats nasty do u hav any dignity! guess not fag!"

I thought everyone deserved a good laugh. These are some of the best flames I've ever received! In terms of humorousness, of course... ^____^
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Hehe...

So... today I got certified in CPR. I think. I'm pretty sure I passed. It took five hours.

Oi. That is a very, very long time. And we didn't really practice on the dummies too much. Though that was interesting. I think Andy named ours "Torso Tom". -__-;; Boys are odd.

And Mrs. F taught the course instead of our normal teacher. Her daughter is Logan, whom I have a little crush on. *smiles* We heard some Logan stories, which were cute. Logan is my incentive (along with numerous other cutesy, pretty girls) to go to class functions and vote in class elections and stuff. Her mom's also our class advisor and Logan does a lot of the student council... stuff.

And I thought about it a bit today and realized that I had a crush on a girl when I was in the fourth grade. Her name was... Briana. I think.

"Am I not 'turtle-y' enough for the Turtle Club? Turtle, turtle!"

That's the new thang. Kekekekeke...

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I hate everything

Sometimes I just get so fucking MAD and frustrated that I stop caring about my health and safety and the health and safety of others. Then I might do stupid things. Like cut my hair, cut my skin, think about suicide...

Think about causing a head-on collision going 40 mph.

I may actually have a problem with impulsiveness when I'm angry (well, would you want to believe it if you had it?). Because I can see myself becoming angry enough to kill myself rather violently. Or kill other people.

And it doesn't scare me.

But I don't think I'll do it because a) I think that, in some ways, I'm actually sane and b) my moral sense of right and wrong is highly inflated to the point of being annoying.

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I need some goddamned amusement

Fandom character you'd most like to...

...spend the rest of your life with in perfect bliss: Reeeeeeemus... *sighs*

...have an emotionally void but wicked hot one-night stand with: Harry P-p-p-p-potter!

...watch having an emotionally void but wicked hot one-night stand: Reeeeemus and Misssster Potter. Or Remus and Sev. Mmmhmmm.

...set up with your best friend: Jack from "The Tribe" because Stef would go bloody nuts. ^^;; Or get bored with him within the week.

...have as your best friend: Mmm... Lance Alvers. I don't care how much of a jerk-ass or a dork he can be... I like him!

...get wasted with: Vash the Stampede! XD

...employ as a live-in masseur: Detritus? Maybe not... (Ouch...) How about Pietro? Fast and hard...

...use as a human pillow: Sam Vimes. But the armor and chain-mail would have to come off first. Or Dan Rydell... he'd make a great pillow.

...bring home to meet the 'rents: Angua? Remus? We'd have a werewolf party.

...have as your sibling: Susan Sto-Helit. Totally and without question.

...tie up in your basement and kick when you're feeling frustrated: Sirius Black, Duo Maxwell (I'm sorry Duo fans!), Dana Whitaker, and Kitty Pryde.

...tie up in your bed and lick when you're feeling frustrated: Harry Potter. *smiles*

And "Sports Night" manages to have some of the most confusing fics in the known universe. *eyes dart around frantically* Wait! Shift? What shift? Stop! Hold! Who's speaking?
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Random musings on Internet friendship

Last entry today, I promise.

Ok. I'm probably one of the most annoying fans out there in the known universe. I bounce, continually, from fandom to fandom, starting things, doing stuff, having a blast.

And, almost as soon as I start, it seems like it's all over and I'm moving on. Which is fine by me, obviously, but tends to make other people pissy. Because I leave behind the ruins of fics and art and stuff. And fans can be greedy, even from other fans. Plus, I tend to leave the more obscure corners of the fandom, and they always hate losing people.

But what I hate losing, really really really hate losing, is the friendship. I mean, ok... it must be a pretty pathetic friendship if it hinges on one common interest, but it's still friendship. I mean, I was madly, totally in love with Zero as a friend and as more... but once I fell out of the Gundam Wing loop, our friendship deteriorated. It was sad.

Then again, I still like Everclear... and Amy and I are no longer friends. So that doesn't always matter. But, then again, that's a real-life relationship. One in which we saw each other everyday and did stuff on the weekends.

Then again, Stef and I are still great friends... and we have many common interests, but also many very, very different interests. When I pulled more out of theatre, we didn't stop speaking, even though that was one of the main things we had in common. And when she pulled more out of the art world, I didn't stop speaking to her. (Peace. Love. Durable friendship... and coffee!)

Anyway... I don't like losing friends. And, even if I no longer have something in common with a person, I still like keeping up with that person. I still ask about Amy. I still think about things I'd like to tell her. I still think about Zero and wish I could get a response from her.

Just because one or the other moves on to something new doesn't mean the friendship has to end. That's all.
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