I am, by nature, a lazy person. Or, rather, I guess I'm a creative person who has no problem doing things that hold my immediate interest, but balks at anything involving real work. The past few years of school have involved almost no work on my part. In general, I could breeze through classes doing the occasional worksheet and listening only when convenient to me. It was a fairly good set-up from my point of view, as it required me to do the minimum amount of work while getting an A and still having time to draw, goof-off, sleep, have fun, etc.
Apparently, this year is working on shattering my comfort zone. It feels like all of my time is spent sleeping, doing homework, or sitting in class. All I'm focused on is whether I have homework to do and how far away the weekend is. All I want these days is time off. Two or three days to do my homework instead of one. Add to this the oppressive cloud of fear hanging over my head, and you find me huddled beneath layers of blankets rocking back and forth while clutching a stuffed animal and crying (this is true). More and more I find myself thinking "I can't do this".
I really am sorry that most of my posts lately have just been me whining but, like I said, all I'm doing right now is being stressed by school. There's not a lot else to be said right now, and I'm definitely running out of ways to express my fears. Thank you, thank you, thank you as always to people who offer support or encouragement; it is very much appreciated. I can't even express how appreciated it really is... thank you, thank you, thank you.
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Since it seems to have become less and less necessary for me to be coherent in any way, this really seems to fit quite well.