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11 May 2003 @ 05:00 pm
There. Are. No. Words.  
No words for how angry Sebastian makes me. No words for how angry his family makes me. I keep having to set down the book and do other things because I get so.... grr. GRR! I just keep wanting everything to be good for him and Charles, even though I know that isn't how the story goes. but i want it anyway!

I rarely get so... involved. But, I dunno. It's a very tense book, in a lot of very strange ways.

I'm sort of... in this very weird place where I have no idea what to do with myself. There are a lot of things that I think I'd like to do, but for some reason I can do nothing except move between Brideshead and the computer. And I don't think Brideshead is very good for me at the moment. And I'm not really doing anything on the computer. Typing this. Looking for things to read. I could write or draw or work on the stupid site, but I'm not. Hell, I could be doing my homework. I'm not, really.

Right now, at this very moment, I have enthusiasm for NOTHING. Fuck all. Very strange feeling. Because I want to get up and move, but on the other hand... no. I don't. I'm sort of lost in this mental limbo. I don't even want to sleep, which is just biologically sanctioned mental limbo. I'm so in limbo that I don't want to move into good limbo!

This stopped making sense awhile ago, I fear. But, yeah. Limbo. Damn Sebastian.

o_O Another fancier of the old. Good for you I
guess. Charles is seen as a fatherly-type of
person, and is one you can open up to. He is
known to be amiable and very dependable. His
genius is only surpassed by his love and
understanding of other people. He makes for a
great companion with much affection, plus, the
baldness *is* kinda sexy.

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Well, I always did have a leeeetle crush on Capt. Picard. But I was kind of hoping for Magneto. Ian being all... dominating... is actually quite sexy. Woo, older men.

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Mimmimine on May 11th, 2003 03:16 pm (UTC)
Lovely icon! So, you're reading Brideshead! I loved the series and now it's playing again here only extremely late at night... I didn't even know there was a book! I don't remember Sebastian being awful but then again it was so long ago, I wouldn't. He's so handsome! I can't believe a friend had insisted it was Kenneth Branaugh! (who isn't bad looking just not... erm... that gorgeous actor who plays Sebastian and who I can't remember having seen anywhere else...)

That X-men quizz is nuts! I got Bobby Drake! Looks like I'm officially a perv.
DrWorm: squallxlagunadrworm on May 11th, 2003 07:30 pm (UTC)
Yes, the book is by Evelyn Waugh and just... *sighs* I mean, it's gorgeous. I guess it's just painful to be with Charles as he watches Sebastian's transformation and decline. And then not believing it at all when he begins this sudden fascination with Julia.

And, haha, Sebastian's actor was Anthony Andrews. Kenneth Branaugh is attractive in his own ways, but certainly not in that fey and pretty Anthony Andrews way. Mmmm... Anthony and Jeremy. :D