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05 July 2003 @ 02:13 am
Forgive me. Some of the following may be horridly pretentious. But I'm not very happy right now... and... yeah.

This made me think about fanfiction and slash and why-the-fuck I'm still trying when there's no bloody point anymore amidst the bickering and the nastiness.

First of all, the entire article is hypocritical. The author contemptuously states :"The ones who are writing simply to please their own obsessions and fetishes often, quite boldly, proclaim, 'This is what I want to write and I don't care what anyone else thinks.'" However, she closes with this statement: "In the end, you wind up writing for yourself, hoping that maybe someone out there will give a damn." Sorry... but "writing for yourself" and writing to "please" your "own obsessions and fetishes" don't sound too different to these jaded (eighteen-year-old) ears. In fact, they sound exactly the same. Yes, gen writers have specific things that they like to write about as much as slash or het writers do. I persist in writing about rape and abuse, you just keep on writing about... Marty getting a puppy. Or whatever the fuck you gen writers write about.

I'm simply peeved that there seems to be contempt for all slash writers here. Violent contempt. Because apparently Mary-Sues are forgivable, but a kiss between two boys is not. The image of all slash being absolutely horrific really bothers me. Hi, stereotype much? There's good slash and bad slash, just as there's good gen and bad gen, good het and bad het. And certainly not all slash is explicit homoerotic sex with no plot or theme or thought put into characterization or symbolism. My own proof is in my pudding: Cold, Cold Wet Day is a subtle tribute to my own father that he'll never read or realize (and I certainly hope he never does). Not only structured around a classic poem, Love Song is also a sad paean to the lack of distinction between monster, love, child-molestor, and father. Bolero is about childhood and growing older and regret. God From the Machine is about mutilation of self and reactions of people around us. All are slash. None are above the rating of PG-13. All are my own attempts to think about characters and relate them to my own life, or to the lives I see happening around me. I make pained attempts to connect the romantic/sexual element to the original storyline that I'm stealing from. I want to write well and write about what I like.

So why do these people seem to think that I am unable to do that? I just don't get it. Don't like it, don't read, do your own thing and I'll do mine. Criticism of something you don't even want to take the time to understand is pointless and makes you look ignorant. For once, I'd like to be judged on the writing rather than the prejudices associated with the theme, both the good and the bad. This is my hobby. Shouldn't I enjoy it? Why does it just frustrate me so much?

The attitude of intolerance, not just for "alternative lifestyles" but for all people whose interests differ dramatically from those of the majority, makes me hesitant to move into a lot of things that I'd otherwise like to (this goes not only for slash, but for some aspects of my libertarian beliefs). There's a certain high and mightiness I associate with people who look down on slash writers (or even romance writers in general). But I have no particular vendetta against gen writers. I've read some of the good and the bad, but it isn't my particular interest much of the time. Why, instead of just accepting that there are a lot of people who like homoeroticism, do these people feel it necessary to accuse us of the entire breakdown of so-called "good" fandom? I didn't honestly expect the backlash I got when eeking into the well-established BttF group with my father/son incestuous kisses, and now, in light of all that, I hesitate to venture forth into other areas that have long interested me, in a sort of trembling cowardice brought on by being told how my lack of moral values essentially undermines all that is pure and good about fanfiction and the characters I choose to write about.

What people don't seem to understand is that my slash stories are as much a tribute to my love of a series as any gen fan's are. Mine just feature couples of the same sex.

Well, whatever.
Current Mood: aggravatedaggravated
Current Music: Bob Dylan - Things Have Changed
i am not avery.: [ fear me ]amazingrando on July 4th, 2003 11:18 pm (UTC)
I hate how people don't stop to realize that slash writers don't write what they write to piss square people off.

They do it 'cause it's what they want to write.

People like that don't like it, well, sucks for them. Don't read it! At least slash is always clearly labeled. You'll never come across a het story that is conveniently labeled "this story sucks."

You can avoid slash if you want. Unfortunately, you can't avoid crap heterosexual fanfiction.

*blinks and slinks off*
Wisecracks: trulovewisecracks on July 5th, 2003 12:40 am (UTC)
You can avoid slash if you want. Unfortunately, you can't avoid crap heterosexual fanfiction.

*snickers madly* I have the strangest urge to write that in my quote book.
DrWorm: sighdrworm on July 5th, 2003 03:59 pm (UTC)
Unfortunately, you can't avoid crap heterosexual fanfiction.

Since crap heterosexual subplots are so often a part of canon anyway...
Wisecracks: trulovewisecracks on July 5th, 2003 12:38 am (UTC)
Bah. I've leaned not to read anything commenting on fanfic unless i get it through a friend saying "Amen, sista!" I say you got your good and bad fanfics of any kind. Ya come across a bad one, ya shudder and move on. If it's good, say "huzzah!" and go to bed fantasizing.

Wonder if any of these people know there's 50yr olds with husbands and kids that write slash. Obsessively. And are damn good at it. Cuz most of the people who negatively comment on slash seem to think it's all being written by young adults for shock value or sick pleasure. I write it cuz i can somehow believe in the couples more. Think two guys can be more in love with each other than a guy and girl can. I write it if i see it and push it all the way. Would die trying to prove to a "non-believer" there is love there. Course, with all the subtext around it's not hard... unless they're extremely religious or a teenybopper. But i stay clear of both.

*pause* I knew i had a point when i started this. Uh. Oh yeah! Screw 'em. Up the ass with no KY. And go back to doin what ya love.