DrWorm (drworm) wrote,

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I'm not very happy...

In fact, I'm very upset.

I feel very isolated, like there's no one I can talk to who will listen, no one out there who doesn't care that I'm not the smartest or the best at everything, that I'm not always talented or charming, that I have a lot of trouble dealing with emotion. There's no one out there to just listen to my anxiety and my worries, as stupid or irrational as they may be.

I feel like I've just been swallowing emotions for weeks now and that all of that energy needs to be regurgitated somehow... in the form of cutting, I suppose.

Feeling even something like extreme happiness makes me anxious... I have no way to properly express it. By all accounts, this should have been a terrific day. By my accounts, it was not.

I lost my ring. I want it back so badly that it hurts.

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