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03 August 2003 @ 12:18 am
I'm not very happy...  
In fact, I'm very upset.

I feel very isolated, like there's no one I can talk to who will listen, no one out there who doesn't care that I'm not the smartest or the best at everything, that I'm not always talented or charming, that I have a lot of trouble dealing with emotion. There's no one out there to just listen to my anxiety and my worries, as stupid or irrational as they may be.

I feel like I've just been swallowing emotions for weeks now and that all of that energy needs to be regurgitated somehow... in the form of cutting, I suppose.

Feeling even something like extreme happiness makes me anxious... I have no way to properly express it. By all accounts, this should have been a terrific day. By my accounts, it was not.

I lost my ring. I want it back so badly that it hurts.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
Pete: There's more fuck-me-Freddy days.glorybox on August 2nd, 2003 10:44 pm (UTC)
...Jesus Christ-bananas.

Man...all I can say is that I'm sorry that you've lost your ring, I'm sorry you feel like hell, and I'm sorry that all I'm able to do for you is say "I'm sorry".

If you ever need to rant at someone, please e-mail me. I'll be happy to listen to you.

*hugs* I'll be thinkin' about you, man.
EasyTigereasytiger on August 3rd, 2003 02:14 am (UTC)
The Happy Misanthrope And Facet Of The Gestalt: insane crowleydavechicken on August 3rd, 2003 03:22 am (UTC)
I know you don't know me, but I want to send you a huge *HUG* because... because it is horridly wrong to have to feel like that. :(

Which is lame I know but- never good for the grand gestures.

Sycoraxsycoraxthewitch on August 3rd, 2003 04:15 am (UTC)
*hugs you*
If you want to you can always talk to me. (I am almost always online)