Reason two: I got yelled at yesterday by our director for 'All in the Timing'. Actually, everyone got yelled at. But I don't take yelling well, I don't take accusations well, and it's still making me feel somewhat...unpleasent. Once again, it's backstage politics making everything fucked up. Bill said something mean to Ryan (very, very mean...I guess. It upset him a lot) and Ryan left. That scared me too. I don't like not knowing what's wrong and no one is being particularly forthcoming with information (with good reason, I guess...but it's exasperating).
Reason three: I feel really powerless. What do you do when you care about someone, but can't go anything to make everything better, can't help somebody who's not doing well? It's so frustrating, and no matter what I say, it all seems to fall on deaf ears. I can't deal well with it. It's frightening. It's stressful.
On the plus side, I finished my Trigun fic and my deoderent smells like rasberries. But that's it.