So I've been taking a medication called Lamictal since being the in the residence center. It's generally used for the treatment of epilepsy, but can also be used to treat bipolar disorder and is used as a mood stabilizer.
The past few days I've been skipping doses, and I feel so much better than I did. The mental block that would settle in everytime I tried to write or draw seems to have lifted slightly (not that I'll ever be prolific, but it just feels better). Plus, the insane sexual frustration seems to have eased as well. All those feelings of being too slow, too depressed, too helpless... I mean, it just feels better. And I wasn't consciously experimenting by not taking the medication, I had just forgotten... then yesterday I realized how much better everything seemed.
I don't think I'm taking that stuff anymore. >_