Well, I'm not sure what it is. A sort of emotionlessness. Like, my grandfather is in the hospital. I should care. But I don't.

Or this:

Me: I faked taking my pills this morning. I'm not sure why.
Him: that was dumb.
Me: *shrugs*
Me: I'm not trying to be smart.
Him: you're succeeding
Me: Okay.
Me: *shrugs* I don't care...
Him: You should fucking care
Me: I'm sorry. I don't.
Me: Not really.

Normally, that would bother me. Now? Absolutely nothing. Hmm. Going to bed, I guess.